Last night, correction this morning at 4 am when I went to bed, after writing, or I should say trying to finish a term paper on the reliability of the New Testament. It seemed more of a convoluted scribble then a term paper. How much of the Bible I do not know nor understand yet. I thank God He is the teacher and understands my feeble and often distracted mind.
So back to my story.
I had this thought come to mind. 4 AM laying in bed. What if prayer was a dedicated practice instead of an opening and closing statement? What if I became more focused on prayer instead of focusing on the formation of ministry? But I do pray all the time, don’t I? With my children, with my Wife, at dinner, before reading the Bible, while sitting with other believers, while in the car, at church services. But is that enough? How do I truly press in to God? I desire to know His direction, to see His will unfold in my life and for the things I believe I am called to become, what He wants. I almost feel like a blind newborn rat looking for the nipple. Rummaging around till I somehow find the answer to my hunger. I know the substance is there… I read in the Word of the fulfillment that God provides, that He has a plan, that He is able, and that He desires for all to come to know Him! I read but do I pray? I plan, but do I pray? I want actions to turn into substance. Hmm maybe all of this IS creating the substance God desires to come out of my life?
Philippians 1:6 And I am sure that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on that day when Christ Jesus comes back again. NLT
Thank you Lord! May I lay down my silly burdens and rest in You and Your promises.